Out of the Dark

Six years

And a few months here and there

To dispell the darkness that I had plunged myself into

Insecure and frightened 

A caged animal, lashing out at loved ones 

In pain

Happiness? What's that?

And yet

In spite of it all

I held on

As the walls closed in around me 

I fought 

For what else did you expect 

From a cornered animal?

Voices in the void 

Telling me I was useless 

People around me, busy with their lives 

While mine had stopped completely

Yes I gave up 

Yes I lost hope and faith

And yes every time that happened 

A hand came for me 

To pull me to my feet

To bandage the bloodstains in my soul

To glue back the broken pieces 

To make a warrior whole

I slipped into darkness again and again

And got up again and again

For I had family 

And friends 

Who didn't give up on me 

And stood behind me 

Aiding me in my battles 

Then someone trained me 

To battle my demons properly

I was given a restructured sword 

One whose slashes caused damage 

And with it in my grasp

I beat the darkness 

And bathed my soul with light

Purifying 

Exorcising

Today I stand before you, reborn

And I thank each and every person who stood with me

Even when I was the bad guy

And did horrible things to them 

Thank you for not giving up on me 

Thank you for saving me 

 And they say what doesn't kill you makes you stronger 

I can feel that strength coursing through my body

And with it, I swear to fight darkness

And let in light 

The Bilge Master