Land of Confusion

When I was a child

I was curious

Even though it is said that

Curiousity is what killed the cat

The thought of a murdered cat

Only made me more curious

Why a cat? Why not a dog?

Was my first question

I blew up a fuse 

Because I put a wire where no wire should have been

I asked my teacher 

What will I be?

She shrugged and failed me in Hindi

I didn't say goodbye 

To curiosity

I then went to college

And during my tenure 

Learnt about the applications of electricity

I joke that I wandered the halls with a live wire 

Sticking it to people

But the truth is I was confused 

And hurting 

And in the middle of this pain

And delirium

I went on a journey

Of self discovery

Finding out that I was a survivor 

And yet again I was curious

Just how much could I survive?

Could I survive shock therapy?

Could I survive a fall from the third floor of a building?

Could I survive being seperated from my family?

Could I survive without friends?

Walking in a forest in my dreams 

I met a sage who said 

Dude, you gotta do what you gotta do

And not live with regrets

Just breathe 

In and out

One day this Rubik's cube

Will get solved 

This morning on Facebook

I saw a picture posted by a Romanian friend 

Valentine's week spent in bed reading 

With a cup of coffee for company 

One day when all is said and done 

And the Ring's been thrown into the Cracks 

And Frodo the Nine Fingered has returned from Mordor 

Remember the words of a curious man

Who never stopped 

Being curious

Even though he was terrified sometimes 

Now, here I've given you millennials 

A Tolkien reference, a social media platform

And something that happened when I was high

There is no message here and the cake is a lie 

There's nothing to take away in this land of confusion

But belief that one day clarity will come 

And defeat the shadows under your bed 

And the ones lurking in your head 

The Bilge Master