If I Died Yesterday

If I had died yesterday

Some would be sad 

Others would come to my last rites 

And help mom and dad 

Some others would be upset

Or call me weak

A drug probe might be ordered 

My room closed off and boarded up

But I didn't die yesterday

I didn't die yesterday

Because I want to live 

I want an eventful Instagram profile 

I want to write one more N-N-1 

I want to stand upon a mountain and yell

I. Am. Alive 

I want to bring back teenaged me 

Who led by example 

And not empty words 

I want to meet people and go places 

I don't want the demon to win

That my friend is why

Why I did not die yesterday

The Bilge Master