Saturday, October 31, 2020

Autumn Leaves 2.0 ft. Ahana Mitra


What is going on spooky people? Allow me to wish you a Happy Halloween or All Hallows Eve and help you say "Down with COVID 19!" a little louder. Since we might not be doing enough Trick or Treating tonight, I bring you a story o wrote five years ago with artwork that's Halloween themed by my friend Ahana Mitra! She runs her own YouTube channel and is quite the creator. She's written a little bit about herself below. Have a gander at the art, the channel and the Halloween themed work that adorns this post. 

Introducing Ahana Mitra!

The Bilge Master 


Im a self taught artist. I have always enjoyed painting since childhood. Since lockdown i started investing more time into painting...while one day i came up with this idea of creating my own youtube channel just for fun. It makes me happy when people enjoy watching my videos and appreciate my paintings.


Otum was in a hurry. He had stayed a little too late at office and as a result, there was a chance he would miss the train home. He started to jog towards Central station, brushing past the occasional pedestrian and leaping over a few puddles.
Yes, it was raining and he had forgotten an umbrella. He hated London.

Otum managed to make it to Charring Cross station and onto the platform just in time for the train. It was pulling in when he arrived, panting from having jogged his way there and cursing under his breath, because he was soaked to the skin. He heard someone approach and felt a tap on the shoulder.
He turned around.
“Don’t scream”, said the figure facing him. “Board the train, we can talk on the way”
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“What are you?”, was the first question out of Otum’s mouth.
“I am a man, Otum. I just have a scary face. I’ve come here to your world in order to have a little fun.
“Fun? What fun?”
 “Am I the only one that can see you? I don’t see anyone else looking in our direction.”
“Others can see me, but they see just a man in a Homburg hat chatting with you. I can’t broadcast my existence like this to everyone. There would be anarchy! I have to obey certain rules. But all that later. The train has started and so has the game!”

“Now, to the business at hand. I told you I was bored. I am. I want to play a game with you. I have jumbled up the names of the train stations on this route. You mean to get off at Piccadilly. You’re going to have to get off at Piccadilly station.
Understand the game. Piccadilly station is still Piccadilly station, but the name of the station is different. It looks the same, it goes the same way. But it’s name isn’t Piccadilly. I won’t tell you what the name is. That would be cheating.”

Otum smirked. He knew what Piccadilly looked like and he knew it would take twelve minutes to get to Piccadlly. Of those twelve minutes nine had passed, and so Otum got up from his seat and headed to the door.

The train began to slow. The djinn was behind Otum. He whispered “You’re sure about this?”

Otum replied “Oh yes. I know Piccadilly”, and stepped off the train.
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The stranger and Otum got off the train. The stranger was laughing heartily. He came up to Otum and clapped him on the shoulder.

“Well done boy! Well played. Now, you get a prize from me. You got the month of October as a prize.”

“October? The month? What will I do with October? “, asked a bewildered Otum.

“That’s upto you, my boy. Meanwhile, I need to rush.”
The man vanished in a puff of smoke, leaving Otum with a legal deed to October in his hands.
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Dinner was quiet. His wife, Lena had made pot roast, spiced with cinnamon, his favourite dish. But, Otum ate without tasting. He was preoccupied with the deed to October in his pocket.
After dinner, over coffee his wife asked im if everything was okay.
“You seem a little off tonight dear. Long day at office?”, she asked
“Yes. That new plant project manager called. He wasted my entire lunch hour.”

“Take a valium and try to sleep Otum.”, advised Lena
Otum had trouble sleeping that night. He had a very strange dream. In his dream, he saw a tree with yellow leaves, under a blue sky. Slowly, clouds appeared in the sky and the tree’s leaves started becoming tinted with red.
After some time, the tree had bloody orange leaves and the sky was grey.

Otum woke up, with a scream. Lena who was next to him switched on the light.

Her husband was shaking and covered in sweat. He groped frantically for his glasses. Lena found them for him and put them on him. She helped him out of bed, told him to splash water on his face and then went downstairs to make tea.
Otum told her what he had seen in his dream. He told her about the tree with yellow leaves. He told her how the leaves took on an orange hue, which seemed bloody orange, as if a person’s blood were being mixed with the leaves.

“Does this mean you need to take a life, Otum?” asked Lena.

“The contract merely states that I own October and that it is mine to keep or change as I see fit. No mention is there of taking lives in October.”, said Otum.

It was morning by then and so Otum started to get ready to go to office.

Office was a normal day. No strangers jumping out of corners and giving him months of the year. He got home around six and showered. He couldn’t get the dream out of his head. What did it mean? Did the tree exist? Was he supposed to find the tree? These questions and more kept whirling around his head.

Over dinner, he told the rest of the family about what had happened. His children aged 3 and 6 both demanded that the Oktoberfest parade be done every day. His father immediately sprinkled holy water on him, scared that he was possessed by some spirit. He also asked Otum to destroy the document.

Otum said, “I tried. I cannot burn it, cut it, or shred it.”

That night, Otum dreamt again. Once again, he saw a tree. The tree was green this time, and the sky above it was forget-me-not blue. Slowly as Otum watched, the sky changed colour. It became greyish. At the same time, the green leaves of the tree became tinted with red.

Otum looked around. He was in a grove. All the trees in the grove had leaves in full bloom, which were all slowly turning red, one tint at a time.

He walked in the grove for a while. He walked up to one of the trees and asked, “What is happening to you?”

The tree replied, “The year ended. I am growing old. Just as you grow old. This is the season trees grow old.”

“When does this happen?” asked Otum

“It happens just before the winter comes and all is cold, and our leaves are covered with frost. During this time when the trees age, the animals who hibernate search for food. It has always happened in the months before winter. Humans haven’t noticed. They do not know to listen and see things. They do not know the many faces of Nature. They are like babies, shielded in their wombs”

“And when winter passes?”

“The new trees, younger trees grow. The green trees. Flowers bloom. Butterflies can be seen. Robins chirp. You see friend, people tend to see only three seasons- spring, summer and winter. Seasons are not three, but four. Do you understand now?”
Otum looked at the tree, and slowly he smiled.

“Yes, I do.”
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“A new season? You want to make a new season?” asked Otum’s wife

“Yes. I know what the dreams mean now.” Said Otum. He explained the dream he had to his wife. His wife, like him was initially surprised but then she understood.

“I can’t believe that I didn’t notice the trees before. Look, there’s a yellow one outside!”

Otum looked up and saw the tree from his dream. He smiled. He knew that he was doing the right thing.

On the deed he had for October, there was a small space. In that space, Otum wrote that October would have a new season, one called Autumn, In autumn the trees would grow old and their leaves would change colour. Autumn would welcome winter and would last till November, when the cold and snow came. The skies would be greyish. Occasionally there would be a little rain. The leaves would turn orange-ish or reddish, and they would fall from the trees after the first few weeks.

He signed the deed and then went to have dinner.
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That night, Otum dreamt of the tree again and how it changed colour. The red colour seemed a little familiar. He turned around and saw the man who had given him the deed.

“You!” he exclaimed.

“Me” the man smiled. “You’ve done well with the deed I gave you. You figured out what October needed. I forgot to mention who I am. I am a djinn. You call us genie in your language. Not all that we do, but part of our function is to cause some form of mischief. “

“What? Why did you pick me to do what you could have done yourself? “




“That’s just it, I can’t change anything. It has to be a human who sees something different and changes it. After all, you are made in 
God’s image are you not? We are merely mischief makers.
“I forgot to mention another thing. In order for the change to work, you must die. That red color seems familiar to you, because it is your blood that is staining the leaves thus.”

“What you mean is, said Otum, I must die for this to happen.”

“Yes Otum.”

“People will see this beauty unfold each year, but my family, they will grieve!”

“Why do you think it that way? Every time you children see an autumn leaf, they will remember their father. Whenever the monsoons pass, your family will remember you, through this season. Why think the negative? Look at what your mind has created here!”

Otum smiled at these words. He drank it all in. The trees, the winds from the west. The sky.

He smiled and closed his eyes.
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“My husband died in his sleep last night. I am told he felt no pain. He didn’t have much of an estate but it’s to be divided as we see fit. My husband was a kind man; he used to do things for people. This eulogy barely does him justice. I wish I could tell you what he was like.”

As Otum’s wife read this from the church dais, a small, reddish yellow leaf fluttered onto her palm.



Monday, October 19, 2020

Early Sunsets Over Monroeville - A Fan Fiction by Lorien Shaw


This is a girl I met on a My Chemical Romance group on Facebook. This is a story she'd posted and I loved reading it. I asked her to send it to me and she very kindly allowed me to publish it on my blog. She wrote her own bio, enclosed below!

My name is Lorien (Lor-e-n, sometimes it's hard for people to pronounce) Shaw, I just turned 14 and I'm from a small town in the south. I love writing, drawing, playing music, or just expressing my creativity. All I want is to be known as someone who made a positive difference in someone else's life, because I know what it's like to hit low lows.




 Early Sunsets Over Monroeville

 

 

 

The sun sets earlier now than it used to. Orange and yellow skies aren’t a good sign around here. We sat on the ledge of a hill for a break. I hold my wife’s hand.

          “We must get moving soon, Mealina,” I say. She nods.

          “I know. It’s just so beautiful out here.”

          The sky was darkening. I stand, pulling Mealina up with me. She kisses my cheek and we head off North.

          This town used to be so full of life. Kids running and playing in front yards, cars carrying adults to work, the occasional cat or dog crossing the street. Now everything is still. The stores that are left are used as refuges. The only sound that can be heard is the rustling of the wind. Broken-down cars line the streets. It’s a dismal, depressing sight.

          My wife and I enter our refuge, quickly calling a meeting for a head-count. I counted the living faces. We lost no one today. It was progress.

          “We’re low on food, Greyson,” Mealina whispers to me.

          “I’ll gather more at sunrise tomorrow.”

          “We don’t have anything for supper,” she pushes. “We need to feed everyone, especially the children.”

          I bite my lip.

          “I’ll run out to the garden quickly and grab a few heads of lettuce. I’ll be back before sunset, I promise.”

          “No,” I reply sternly. “It’s too risky.”

          Mealina opens her mouth, ready to strike back, but gets interrupted by the children running rampant in the small space. I tell everyone we will not be eating tonight.

          As I finish my statement, the back door swings open and slams shut. I whip my head around, counting everyone’s face. We’re missing someone.

          Mealina.

          I jump down from my post and run as fast as I can out into the yard. I frantically search the area. I run to the garden.

          There she is, gathering lettuce and tomatoes and other things. I run to her as quickly as my legs will take me, but I’m too late.

          It happens so fast yet it’s playing in slow motion.

          Something small and sleek swoops from the sky and transforms upon landing. Mealina drops her basket, shocked. The vampire grabs her shoulders as tears of terror roll down her cheeks. He sinks his teeth into the soft flesh of her neck and feasts upon her. I stand motionless, paralyzed with fear and sorrow. The color drains from my wife’s body.

          The vampire pulls away after what feels like an eternity, even though it was really only a minute. Returning to his bat form, he flies away, leaving Mealina helpless. I run to her, no longer frozen.

          I pick her up but her body is cold. Her heartbeat is slowed and her breathing is shallow. I cry over her. Her hand lifts to my cheek.

          “I love you.” Her voice is light and scratchy.

          “I love you, too,” I whimper through shaky breaths.

          I carry her inside and lay her on the bed. I lock the door and wander to the bedside table. I look at Mealina, my beautiful, lovely wife with sorrowful eyes.

          “I’m sorry, Mealina,” I cry, opening the first drawer and grabbing the small pistol. Her eyes fill with tears.

          “Greyson, no, please,” she whines. I stop momentarily. Regaining my composure, I load the gun.

          “Greyson, I love you.” Tears are streaming from her face now.

          “I love you, too, Mealina. I always have and I always will. You were the one and only,” I manage to say, wiping my eyes.

          She cries and screams and pleads.

          “Greyson, please! I love you, please, Greyson, please!”

          “I’m sorry Mealina. I love you,” I choke out, aiming for the center of her head.

 

          BANG!!

 

          Mealina is finally still and I fall back against the wall. The gun falls beside me and I hug my knees and cry. The other refugees are knocking at the door but I don’t care. There’s a corpse in this bed and I’m a wreck.

          They’re calling out to me.

          “Greyson, are you okay?!”

          “Greyson, what happened?!”

          “Greyson, where’s Mealina?!”

          “Greyson?!”

          I pick up the gun and reload it. I can’t live in this nightmare, not with my wife’s blood on my hands. I put the gun to my head and pray to whatever God is listening.

          “I’m so sorry, Mealina, darling,” I end. “Please forgive me. I love you.”

          I pull the trigger and there's a rush of force and calm and energy and noise and silence, all at once, and then there’s nothing. I see Mealina. She’s waiting for me. I approach her and hold her hand. We sit atop a hill and watch the sunset.

          “I love you,” she says.

          “I love you, too,” I tell her.

 

 

 

THE END



Sunday, October 11, 2020

Happy Birthday, Suranjana Aunty

There are some things about your childhood you cannot forget. The chocolates and biscuits you loved, the football at the local park and the first friends you made.

Back then, I used to go to school and I met a girl called Debolina there. She was a sweet thing and we used to talk a lot, as children growing up together are bound to do. Debolina was one of my earliest and therefore most cherished friends. But this post isn't about her. It's about her mother- a person I simply called Suranjana Aunty.

I don't remember too much about Aunty, which is sad. I do associate three things with her. They are Hindi, blackcurrant cream biscuits (which totally and unequivocally need to make a comeback!), and cinnamon. I don't know why I associate cinnamon with Suranjana Aunty and those familiar with my writing will now say that this is just me trying to be someone romantic. That isn't the case.

Suranjana Aunty is one of those people who always smiled and always was good to me. Today she finishes another year on the planet. I would like to take this chance to wish her many happy returns of the day and welcome her to the umpteenth first day of her life. I hope we get to meet someday though right now she is in Delhi and I am in Kolkata. But hey, if the world can be so small that someone can send books to me via a phone, then obviously one day we will reunite for sure!

Happy birthday, Suranjana Aunty. Thank you for existing. I hope you've had a wonderful day!

Ashesh

Saturday, October 3, 2020

If I Died Yesterday

If I had died yesterday
Some would be sad 
Others would come to my last rites 
And help mom and dad 
Some others would be upset
Or call me weak
A drug probe might be ordered 
My room closed off and boarded up
But I didn't die yesterday
I didn't die yesterday
Because I want to live 
I want an eventful Instagram profile 
I want to write one more N-N-1 
I want to stand upon a mountain and yell
I. Am. Alive 
I want to bring back teenaged me 
Who led by example 
And not empty words 
I want to meet people and go places 
I don't want the demon to win
That my friend is why
Why I did not die yesterday

The Bilge Master

Monday, September 21, 2020

Ashes: The Story of a Young Man

Our story begins in 2010, when a little boy saw his first loved one leave for her afterlife. He was sad and he realized his life had changed forever. 

In November of that year he started a blog and it's going good. People appreciate his writing, which his teachers had nurtured in him. Although primarily he composes poems, he does dabble in prose sometimes. This is a spiritual sequel to an article he wrote about his experience in 2010 and how 10 years later, some things have not changed. To fully appreciate this post, the boy who is now a man requests the reader to click here and read the first post.

The man in this post wants to be 18 till he dies. Unfortunately, as Rise Against said, life isn't like that. The boy is behind the man and the man's sisters have not been exactly free either. So the old days of sitting on his grandmother's lap, eating pancakes and doing mathematics from a red book are behind him. 

He is now an engineer, just as his father before him. He has made some friends, and probably will grow up alone. Adversity has shown its face a few times but he's still alive. In short, although this seems cynical, the boy is hopeful. 

Someday he's going to the great gig in the sky to sing along with John Lennon. The boy feels under the weather sometimes but his friends help him. He has found that some people trust him. He has also found an avenue through his blog to connect with like minded people. 

However at his core, the boy who is now a man, wishes he could be a boy again. He wishes he could talk to his grandmother just one more time. He would pay anything to roll the dice one more time. Sometimes he misses them so much, it leaves him hollow. 

But as long as the man lives, he won't forget them and they will watch over him. Estranged as he might be from some, others will walk this world with him. Alone as he feels sometimes, art speaks to him. 

This is the boy, who is a man, but who is also a boy saying that he won't forget the good days. Sometimes that's all that's needed to silence the other voices in his head- voices that tell him it's not worth it, cannot take away the feeling of joy that courses through him when he hears his favorite songs.

The boy who is a man but also a boy is on a journey to a place. He doesn't know where he's going, but he's on his way.

The Bilge Master

Sunday, September 13, 2020

The Music Has Stopped

When I need a hug
Or comfort in other ways 
I play a song 
Over the course of time 
I've heard many 
Then I heard the music 
In your laugh
And the orchestra in your eyes 
I knew I would love to dance with you
As the world around us burned 
For a while it seemed 
I could come out of my shell
That the bridge over troubled water 
Had arrived 
But we never got that far
Because one day you were there
And the next day you weren't 
I see the ghosts of what could have been
Your face hidden behind a mask
Our friends talk of Michelangelo
While we discuss Van Gogh
I thought I'd finally be able 
To leave the darkness behind 
But of late 
The darkness has come 
The drugs don't work
The self harm is just scars 
And the music has stopped 

The Bilge Master 

Monday, August 31, 2020

Follow the Sun

She told me 
The sun must set to rise 
And I believed her 
I searched for her in every sunset
But I was so lost in my search 
That I didn't realize 
That the light on her porch was 
Slowly and steadily growing dim
Until one day it went out 
And I was alone again
I cannot look at sunsets anymore 
Now that I'm back to being nomadic 
I follow the sun
For tomorrow it could rain
Maybe she was the one 
Lennon was singing about 
Maybe I should've known better 
But although the sun has set now 
Tomorrow it'll rise again
Tomorrow I'll get up
Dust myself off 
And continue
For both of us this time 
It's what she would want 

The Bilge Master