Breaking Away

You woke up today

And the bed was cold 

Because I was gone 

You were brushing your teeth when you saw the note 

That said I won't be back

I wonder if you're missing me now 

I wonder if you still have that bottle of Chanel No 5

Before I used to come up gasping for air 

Because of your razor blade caress of love 

Now I find I am at peace 

Which has come without you in my life 

I suppose I have no choice but to be okay with that

Because you have lived and I haven't 

I have dreams 

I want to see the world I am a part of 

I want to be free 

I want to run, stop hiding behind a fake face 

Just as a coocoon evolves into a butterfly 

I want to evolve too

Come out of my shell 

And just live happily

I just wish you'd understood me when you had the chance 

Maybe then I wouldn't be living away from you

But you made your choice and now we must both live with it 

Each dealing with it in our own style 

I wish you well and will always be your son

One day forgive me for what I've done 

The Bilge Master